It’s ok to drop the ball sometimes – What i learned from my dog

When it comes to personal development ( if i can call it that) I have a tendancy to be “all in”. Get super excited about a project and focus on it, almost obsess with it. When it comes to training it can be a good thing but it also leads to me being too hard on myself, asking too much too fast to my body. Which is dumb and unproductive. I am aware of it and really try to be better. Try to let go sometimes. But bad habits die hard.
I was spending last weekend in Paris for a very short but much needed family break. I had taken my running shoes in the hope that i would have time to take a run by the Seine. Time was not an issue actually. I woke up at 8.30 on Sunday and eventhough the weather was depressingly grey it wasnt raining. No, the problem was my dog.

En ce qui concerne le développement personnel (si on peut appeler ça comme ça) j’ai tendance à m’enflammer un chouilla. Je suis super enthousiasme et un peu obsédée – C’est bien pour l’entrainement mais ca peut aussi devenir excessif au point ou ca atteint le contre productif lorsque je pousse trop loin. J’en suis consciente et j’y travaille les mauvaises habitudes sont dures à perdre.
Je passais le weekend à Paris la semaine dernière pour un break en famille bien utile. J’avais pris mes baskets en me disant que j’aurais peut être le temps de faire un petit jogging au bord de la Seine. Finalement ce ne fut pas une question de temps mais une question d’accompagnateur, mon chien.

Meet my dog:

IMG_3239 Name: Elio – Aslo answers to Boubou (pronounce Booboo)

age: 4 years old

Race: Bernese Mountain dog but im pretty sure he is convinced he is a poodle OR a kangaroo seeing how high he jumps when he is happy to see someone

weight: around 60 kg

Favorite person in the whole world: my mom – will follow her to the bathroom and he will guard the door till she comes out

Favorite food: everything we eat or seem to be eating

Favorite activity (beside following my mom around): sleeping under the bench eventhough he is too big to fit in there

Favorite moment of the day: When mom gets up – When mom comes home from work

Elio is one of those person who do not see the point of running if you are not chased. He loves to take walks though, mostly to sniff other dogs’ pee and poo.
So when he saw me getting ready to get out he did his “kangaroo” jumping around like a crazy person to get my attention (like i could miss him!) and his puppy eyes begging me to bring him with me. I should have known better. But i had not seen him in weeks and i gave in.
It started pretty well, slow pace for both of us, warming up, but by the time we had reached the river he realized something was off and started to catch up with me for a while…but the “pee sniffing call” was too strong and i quickly outran him. After a while he gave up trying to catch up and i had to run back and forth to him, blaming myself for taking him with me-

After 20 minutes i gave up. I realized i was ruinning both our experiences, our so short, so precious time together. I was upset cause i could not get my excerice done and he was upset because of all the sniffing around he was missing on and because he was so out of breath. If i continued like this he would never wanna go out with me again. So i kneed down to him to pet him and apologized and we walked home not without a stop by the bakery where a got the crust of the baguette. I think we’re cool now.

My point being, perseverance is good. Most of the time it is a quality. It is what makes you get up in the morning full of hope you’ll get it right this time isntead of hiding under the cover and going back to sleep. It helps you reach your goals. It is essential.
But sometimes you just have to let it go. Some times are not worth it. This i have learnt the hard way: Do not go to the gym if you’re sick or feeling sick – do not force someone who doesnt really want to to run/exercice with you – Do not set ridiculous goals you won t be able to reach and will automatically make you feel like a loser for not reaching them – This applies to planning too – it’s important to plan, make training schedule and stuff  – It helps you stay focus and monitor the progress – but it is not the end of the world if you cannot follow it one day, take today for example, i had planned a class at the gym followed by some interval training, turned out i had forgotten my training pants at home – after seriously considering going in in my panties – i packed up my stuff and got home to bake cakes.
Basically, give it your all, but the best of you – Find the right balance between pushing yourself and being too hard on yourself.

Elio fait partie de ces gens qui ne voit pas l’intérêt de courir si on est pas pourchassé. Il adore les balades pourtant, surtout pour sniffer les pipais/cacas de ses copains. 
Quand il m’a vu prête à sortir il a fait son “kangourou” à sauter partout et ses yeux malheureux et je me suis laissée avoir.
Ca a plutôt bien commencé, rythme lent pour tout les deux, échauffement – Arrivée à la Seine ca a commencé à se compliquer, il a compris qu’il y avait un truc bizarre, que ca allait plus vite que prévu- Il voulait suivre mais au bout d’un moment l’appel des pipis a été le plus fort et je devais faire des aller retour pour ne pas le perdre de vue – Après 20 minutes j’ai laissé tombé. J’ai réalisé que j’étais en train de gâcher le moment pour lui et moi. Il n’était pas content du tout de devoir courir et de rater tout ces “pistes” de nouveaux copains et moi j’étais frustrée de ne pas pouvoir finir ma course – Si je continuais a le forcer il allait finir par ne plus vouloir venir avec moi en balade -Alors je me suis arrêtée, je l’ai attendu et nous avons fini à pied, non sans un arrêt mérité à la boulangerie ou monsieur s’est avalé un crouton de baguette tout rond. 

Ce que j’essaie de dire est que c’est bien d’être persévérant. C’est une qualité- C’est ce qui fait qu’on se lève le matin avec l’espoir, l’envie de faire mieux plutôt que de se cacher sous la couette. C’est ce qui fait que nous atteignons nos objectifs – c’est essentiel.
Parfois pourtant il faut savoir “laisser tomber”. Accepter de ne pas faire ce qui était prévu – Comprendre que ça ne vaut pas la peine – Ca je l’ai appris durement: ne pas aller courir ou à la gym si vous êtes malades ou ne vous sentez pas bien, ne pas forcer quelqu’un à s’entrainer avec vous, ne pas se mettre des objectifs inaccessibles qui vous font vous sentir complètement nul.
J’ai du mal a accepté, lorsque j’ai prévu un entrainement, de ne pas pouvoir le faire, et pourtant, des fois, il faut se dire que tout arrive pour une raison. Lundi par exemple, un fois arrivée à la salle de sport j’ai réalisé que j’avais oublié mon pantalon – après avoir sérieusement envisagée de me trimbaler en culotte – j’ai préféré rentrer plus tôt et faire des gâteaux 🙂 

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